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Change

The leaves are falling  The birds are singing Everything is the same, but it's different. The wind is blowing autumn's silent song I feel the return of feelings I have held onto for so long. Falling  Crashing Swaying Life feels the same, but it's different. Change is evident in the shifting hues Orange Red Yellow Fading into snow. Seasons come, Seasons go. Everything stays the same, but it's different. The streets clear into the night, Everyone sleeps. The morning's glow is a potent light. Bright, as the day covers the ground, Everything around it stays the same it looks the same but it is different. You have forever changed me. You have forever awakened me in a way nothing else has. I want to feel the same but it is different. I want to look the same but I am different. I want to speak the same but the words are different. What once was, will never be. The transition crashes into me, bringing waves of uncertainty. Questions awaken in me. Frustrations soar out of my
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Forever Entwined

I am falling into a new place, shifting from sadness to newfound grace. I still see you dancing around with glee,  but little by little I can let you go free. The madness of the moment somehow seems so distant, sometimes my heart can't take it, feeling quite resistant, to change to healing to hope, it's inevitable, I need this growth. I am reminded time after time, that no matter where life takes me, we are forever entwined. The memories will last forever etched in my heart, we are never truly apart, we will meet again, but until then... I ease my mind, let go of the hands of time, no more rewind,  we are forever entwined. God has a purpose here,  in the midst of all my tears, My ever present fears,  quiet, still, hush  and I find,  that we are all one in this journey  we are all looking to find healing, hope,  peace,  joy, in time in my mind we are all forever entwined in the feeling,  the emotion,  the commotion that is our human experience,  our existence,  our cry out for a

Frustrated

Today I am frustrated.  It is a whirlwind like no other.  I am trying But I keep slipping.  I’m falling but You keep me from touching the ground.  Frustrated  But not defeated Frustrated  But not overcome. 

Sunflower Field

The sun is shining brightly here There isn’t a single fear   We are roaming free Like butterflies and bees  In the ever present, never absent  Sunflower field.  We dance around the green grass and leaves We don’t stop, our heart is finally at ease Up and down the rows of yellow flowers Looming above them like strong and bold towers We are shining bright as the sun We are finally free  In the sunflower field.  Come join me in  Joyful song, all day long.  Kick up your feet Dance to the beat That is The sunflower field.  Swaying in the breeze, Carefree like bumble bees We have found a place to rest The anxiety lifted off my chest, At the sunflower field.  I’m safe and protected here I don’t fear The light is bright  My mind finds peace tonight  Dreaming of dancing by moonlight  In the arms of the sunflower field.  Take me in, twirl me ‘round  Softly tumbling on plush ground, Listening intently to the sound  That is the birds and the breeze, Flying through the trees  Awakening my need To b

Question

Sometimes I wonder, Why did their babies survive  And mine Did not? I still love you God And  I know You Love  Me It’s just a question  

Missing You

There was a space that once was filled It was brimming with happiness that never stilled. I felt the motion in my belly, Making my stomach wiggle like jelly. My heart melts to think of you Then all of a sudden it turns blue. Blue sky, blue rain, Drain, drain away the pain.  My belly once was filled with you two, And now all that is left is blue.  I  Miss You Two. 

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I can’t Push  Past The Why.  🥺