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Missing You


There was a space that once was filled

It was brimming with happiness that never stilled.

I felt the motion in my belly,

Making my stomach wiggle like jelly.

My heart melts to think of you

Then all of a sudden it turns blue.

Blue sky, blue rain,

Drain, drain away the pain. 

My belly once was filled with you two,

And now all that is left is blue. 

I 

Miss

You

Two. 

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