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Never Apart


The world knew you for only minutes of time

I knew you from inside, the feeling was sublime.

I covered you and kept you warm,

I loved you through the thick and thin of it.

There will never be a regret,

I thank God for in a short time at least we met.

Your gentle feet and soft skin I feel upon me,

The thought of you nearby sets my tears free.

I'm free to feel the loss of you,

and free to feel the life you knew.

If I could have just one more minute,

I'd gladly accept you two within it.

I'd rock you just a little longer,

and somehow this would make me stronger.

Strong enough to breathe a little more without you.

Strong enough to love as though I were not blue.

You,

the thought of you,

The two of you,

dancing around in Heaven's expanse,

The thought gives me a chance...

to hope a little more

dream a little more

live a little more.

More to love.

More to live.

More to embrace.

I loved you with all that I had 

and all that I am,

but God loves you more than I can.

He loves you so much that He took you to be with Him.

Too perfect to love here on Earth.

I remember the gentle feet and sweet little fingers,

I remember the eyes closed shut and the warmth of your skin.

I remember you joined together at one heart,

loving each other and never being apart.

Loving each other when we were to depart.

Loving each other from the very start.

I will always have you within me, 

a memory that will never be erased from memory.

Dance on my little boys.

Dance on from joy to joy.

Dance on as though no hurt exists, 

Dance on and continue to persist.

For God does bring a burst of light,

to carry Mami and Papi through the night.

We will not be sad forevermore,

We will rise from ashes and stand in grace,

until we see His face, and meet again with sweet embrace. 


To: Ethan & Nathan Canela

From: Mama Bear

My baby angels gone too soon...I will always love you.

11/6/20-11/6/20 <3


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